Well after many weeks in MI, I swung through Wisconsin for my friend’s wedding and then hustled back to CA to register #persephonevan
Being back in Cali was amazing and magical and full of unexpected fun. I honestly didn’t want to leave and have been thinking about returning for the winter.
Well after 9 days of work in Lansing, 1 day in SF and 1 day in Bend, I am done converting #persephonevan!
I used Gnomadhome for most of it. I found their guide super easy to understand. I used a borrowed drill, and then a jig saw, saw horses and a ladder from East Lansing tool library. Tool libraries rock!!! I still have to add up all my costs, but I believe I was around $3500.
Huge thanks to my friend A in Lansing who supported me and let me stay at her place! Also, Meek from a Guy and his van for helping with the kitchen! And my mom for helping with the final touches!
First, I installed the solar (I hate heights so thanks to A and her friend Ashley for watching me and encouraging me on the roof!!)
Hello random two folks who read this and already know all this because you follow me on social media!
So, I got a new (to me) van!
I went to Lansing where a close friend lives... She is going thru a messy divorce and could use some suppertive company... and I could use a parking lot in which to convert a van, so, it all worked out! She has kitties...
so you know I was in heaven!
And just a sweet relaxed time. So we decided to go get me a new van!
I spent so many days there converting Persephone and intermittently going to women's festivals!
I made it to chicago without stopping on the freeway at random.
Chicago was sweet and easy. Different than a few years ago when I decided to pretend I was a 20 something newly put dyke.
I stayed in a sweet Airbnb that had a kitty.
I had a couple of great connections full of random drinks and adventures.
and I got to see the Bean!
all in all. The Chi is still on my short list of cities to have a sweet love affair in... or with.
So Weebly changed how they calculate visitors, so any delusions I had that anyone is reading this are gone. It’s probably just me checking my stats and maybe a stray random who accidentally stumbles on it.
Been thinking about love on the road thing again. Isn’t the first post and won’t be the last. Will definitely be completely aimless and without central idea.
Do blogs even need central ideas?
recently got turned on to Ira Wolf by the Women on the Road podcast. Perfect combo of a woman’s voice, a bit emo, and van life. I particularly love this song: Sunscreen
A few years ago, I dated a woman who said I was difficult. The subtext was clear- I’m difficult to love. As someone else said once- I’m problematic. To her credit, the “problematic” one regrets it always. It’s one of the only thing she remembers about our relationship but she still regrets it.
“I just want someone to try...” and yeah. That.
I want to find someone to do this crazy van life and jet life with me. Travel is the goal. But in reality most folks are complaisant. Or they are in van life for the easy exit. I’m in it for the travel opportunities. I’d rather spend my money on living rather than rent.
I guess were are all just in our own worlds. You do you. I do me.
See you on the road folks.
Well. I’m pretty frustrated. Rolled out of Arkansas headed to St. Louis. I felt Medusa slipping again and then she shut down (like she ran out of gas) on the freeway going 65. That was awesome.
So I made it to St. Louis and I left her there for a rental (again) to Madison.
Madison was fun!
National Women’s Music Fest wasn’t my crowd but still connected with some women and saw Lisa Vogel speak which was.... everything
My birthday was, as usual, lonely. But. Ya know. Maybe one day I will find my person who gives a F more about my bday than all that the 4th of July is to them.
Went to the Mustard Museum, which was weird AF, and connected with Old old old friends and newer friends.
Rolled back to St Louis and went to the mechanic.
this time it was diagnosed as the Manifold Air Pressure Sensor. $200.
Pedicure and grading while I waited.
Rolled out to The Chi, hoping it might make it one fucking trip without breaking.
So I rolled into a camp ground in Hot Springs National Park and got the last spot! It wasn’t flat but we make it work! Cooked food; drank wine; organized #Medusavan for the first time since Austin! It was GREAT!!
^^^ my chair from Art By Mags is so perfect!!
second day I get up and make a yummy breakfast! And then start #Medusavan to go to the pools in town and.... no air. Like none. No air at all.
Determined to make the best of it, I go to town (cried to my mom for a bit) and go to the pools and for some ice cream. When running back to the van in the pouring rain, I dropped my phone and it fully broke.
so with my last 24% battery life I went to Verizon and got a new phone
[on a side note, if I met you after January, I no longer have your number]
on on a positive note, the Verizon folks were awesome! They gave me mechanic ideas; tourism ideas and were excellent therapists!
New phone in tow, I went to mechanic number 8 (!!!!) and guess what!!??? It was just a fuse! $56 to clean the rust from
my fuse box! Yay! On my way!!!
^^ Cora’s tour of American Mechanics. So far, this was the best waiting room....
so I took this unexpected time and went to the Garvan Woodland Gardens which was truly spectacular and everything I needed!
Sorry for the radio silence (I write as if anyone even reads this). Well, I rented a car and continued on while #medusavan spent some time at the doctor in Alexandria LA.
That zippy little rental sure did get good gas mileage! I checked our Nashville, which wasn’t my cup o tea. Very white. I went on a boring date with someone who checked the NBA draft the whole night. 🙄
But I went to a cool museum and saw some art.
It’s funny. I realized it was pride when I was there and I didn’t even care about going. I’m definitely on a new path and I’m okay with that.
Then I went to Atlanta which was so great! I think that’s the first place I have been in the world that felt as casually diverse as the Bay. I spent time with someone and felt a big connection.
I didn't see as much as I would like so I hope to go back in the fall for longer. :)
I drove back to #medusavan (but not before getting stuck on my stopover hotel elevator for an hour!!!! Because WTF is going on universe??????)
she he was cool and amazing!!!
And then shut down 5 miles from the shop. 😭😭😭😭
so I took her back and it was the throttle sensor (causing the seeming slipping and random shutting off). They fixed it for free and off I went to Hot Springs National Park!
Ever since I watched the movie Closer, I have fantasized about pulling something like Natalie Portman’s character pulled... actually most of my favorite movies involve some kind of running away scenario. I doubt it would be possible in this social media era.
But still I fantasize about running.
So I will admit that something so attractive about this #vanlife is that: the idea that I could fall in love and then just go. Leave. No feelings.
See: Better than chocolate or Closer
But I don’t think I’m that person. I have feelings.
Some of you know I have spent many years single. My days have been pretty lonely for the last few years. I am hella independent and love my alone times but a few months of getting over my last ex turned into years and some weekends felt like a pit of solitude. I would walk for hours listening to audiobooks; watch movies; and hold my own hand while I slept. I’m fine with solitude. In fact I love it. But this was too much.
In February I made a decision that changed all that. I have been dating and playing and it’s been awesome. I’ve felt attractive and have found a confidence I haven’t had in years.
Then this other factor arose- folx who were attracted to the dream more than they were attracted to me. I mean, yeah.... this sabbatical and the life of travel and vanlife is so attractive. But get your own life. Get your own dream. Perhaps they were attracted to me but not more than they were attracted to the lifestyle and the dream.
I experienced the same thing when I lived in a tiny house. People are so attracted to that dream, but few people enough to do it on their own.
so now I date. I am trying to stay open. I don’t want to shut it down. I want to find that person who also wants to show up and leap with me. That pragmatic dreamer who can meet me on this path....
until then: https://youtu.be/dl_EEnR5kJg
yes. I am sure we will revisit this topic because in the end, I am a cancer. I love love. And still hope one day I will find my person.
Well, #vanlife is not awesome today.
Drove through the Red Stick and found out my left blinker was broken.... so, I replaced not just the bulb (which was melted into the socket), but the entire socket, all by myself!
Still on a high from that scrappy femme moment, I was off to Hot Springs National Park!
Rolling through Louisiana with my AC on, I was feeling fine! Until, my engine started making a very loud reving noise...
I pulled off the highway, googled "signs your transmission is broken" and waited for the Tow Truck....
In good news, at least I had AC!
2 hours later, I was towed to Alexandria LA.... The place we took it won't even be able to LOOK at it until next Monday! So, I got a hotel, reserved a car for the week, and then called around for another place. Tomorrow I will take it to the other place and fingers crossed that some small miracle happens like with the AC and the Cooling system that it's not an entire transmission rebuild.
^^^ Not how I wanted to see #Medusavan
I need to find a way to stop spending so much money.... I am really feeling torn, because I want to be in cities with people, but I don't yet feel comfortable van camping in a city....
In the meantime, send woo and I will happily accept all paypal, venmo, or cash donations!