There is a lot of good news here... so far.... and I’m trying way hard to focus on that part.
I’m probably having surgery to have the nodule removed....
good news-
1- I probably don’t have cancer
2- I have the time and space for surgery
3- I have great health insurance
4- I have great doctors who listen and take my pain seriously.
I meet with the surgeon next week.
I’m not gonna lie: I’m scared. The only in patient surgery I have had was the transplant, so... For those of you who aren’t intimately involved with the story, I’ll sum up with— it was traumatizing...
in sum: I donated my kidney in May 2008 to my close friend, Pai Tama. I was alone because I didn’t know I shouldn’t be. It hurt more than I can explain. It was very lonely. They did not take my pain seriously. The recipient died three months later. Everything about that experience sends me into tears when I think about it and when I think about surgery.
But I am in pain and have been since the end of December. I just want this out of my body. And we all just need to think positive that it’s not cancer. Ok??
I’m probably having surgery to have the nodule removed....
good news-
1- I probably don’t have cancer
2- I have the time and space for surgery
3- I have great health insurance
4- I have great doctors who listen and take my pain seriously.
I meet with the surgeon next week.
I’m not gonna lie: I’m scared. The only in patient surgery I have had was the transplant, so... For those of you who aren’t intimately involved with the story, I’ll sum up with— it was traumatizing...
in sum: I donated my kidney in May 2008 to my close friend, Pai Tama. I was alone because I didn’t know I shouldn’t be. It hurt more than I can explain. It was very lonely. They did not take my pain seriously. The recipient died three months later. Everything about that experience sends me into tears when I think about it and when I think about surgery.
But I am in pain and have been since the end of December. I just want this out of my body. And we all just need to think positive that it’s not cancer. Ok??