oh, by the WAY! Guess what??!!! On the way to Hawaii, I didn’t take ANY Xanax on the 12 hour flight!!!! And I experienced almost no fear! I was really proud of myself. For those of you who don’t know, I have a pretty big fear of flying that I have been working on consistently for 4 years. I took the Fear of Flying Clinic (which I highly recommend) and still fly, because sometimes you just have to do it scared.... but this was a huge step for me. I took two Xanax on the way home because it was a red eye but sadly I barely slept.
I got home on almost no sleep in 24 hours to news that my mom has a brain aneurysm.
yeah.
I don’t want to get too much into it because it’s more stuff I should share in therapy (which I know I sometimes— read: often— cross the line on here), but this was a huge shock. My mom is almost 75 and in amazing health. She is a straight up amazon. I am so grateful for her. We have had our fair share of struggles but she is a really amazing woman. I never have thought she would be the parent I might lose first. So this was very scary.
So she had non invasive brain surgery (which, I KNOW!!! SCIENCE!!!!) and that F#%* she did. The surgeon was very glad they removed it because it was pretty dangerous.
So I got a house sit in South Florida and hit the road for sunnier locals!