Deep breath in and hold...
I hear my heart beat with the rhythm of something new and the fear of something old.
Deep breath in...
I search my mind for the right words and the right silences to communicate this intensity.
... and hold...
The tiny red balloon I hold lets a soft whirling sound escape; so soft I almost miss it.
Deep breath...
I flip through the pages of an equally tiny red book, wondering if I will find the right thoughts there...
... and hold...
wishing it was easier to --insert word here--.
Deep breath in...
My skin shakes in an amalgamation of feelings, all mixed together so that none of them are clear...
... and hold...
Feeling less-than, pushed-out, and alone....
Deep breath in...
Feeling love, desire, and the future...
... and hold...
Needing to hear your heart beat with mine... needing you to hold me, to tell me it's ok, to know that's the truth...
Deep breath in and hold....