I spent so long getting grounded but then you just walked in and snipped my anchor and now I can't help but feel the circular feel of the spiral that I love-hated for so long.
I spent the 3.5 months we were together feeling happier and more grounded and less distracted than I ever have... You were like the pink cloud I never had when I got clean 8.5 years ago. But then you just walked away... or I did... or we both did...
and now I am anchorless.
Trying not to call you.
Observing the world down there.
Missing you. Missing passion. Missing giving a fuck. Missing wanting to run away....
Missing the love-hate groundedness of waiting for the anchor-less moments