And always have.
When I was 8 I wrote President Reagan to tell him to throw away his key to the nuclear bomb. I saw peace as a possibility
When I was 15, 18, 23, 25, 28, 32, 35, 38, and 40, I fell in love. I saw all that we could be. I fell deeply, even though the 16 year old goth/ punk rocker in me sighs and scowls and says I have never actually been in love, including now.
I believe in ghosts.
I believe in an afterlife and a next life.
I believe in fairies and vampires and magic.
I believe in aliens and scientific depth.
I believe someone will love me one day, the way I love them. I believe I am worthy. I believe it will come.
But not with you.
i believe you are capable of honesty. I believe it is possible for you to be direct and real.
but not with me.
I believe in my possibilities.
I believe I have the whole world in front of me. Literally.
And I will not give up these possibilities for this. For this nothing. This pain.
I believed I was better than ghosting. But I also know that’s how this will end.